Argh

So... this weekend has been hard for me. As most of you know we lost our third child at 18 weeks in April. Yesterday (Friday) was my due date. Argh. Most days I am doing well. Feeling like I am able to hold to on to a healthy perspective, and able to rest in the Lords strength. But, this weekend it just kept popping up in my mind that I have hit my due date, that our third child would most likely be here by now. I know many of you that have miscarried have had this same experience. It's just a really weird and serial feeling. Filled with lots of different emotions.

I have been seeing my Ob/Gyn on a frequent basis to figure out what's going on with my health. To state in a major "nutshell" version I have been having some "hormonal imbalances" ever since Buggie was born, and it has and continues to put some health stuff out of wack. To say that this past year especially has been hard would be an understatement. This has been a really tough year for our family. Lots of stuff, lots! Again, argh. But, we are holding on to what is true and what we were created for, and that is for us-
1. That we are called to Redlands, and love our church Restoration Covenant. And that we will continue to be faithful in serving and fighting for peoples hearts and lives to be "restored", healed, and free!
2. To be grateful for what we do have. What we have been blessed with. To learn to be content, thankful, and embrace the joy, the life that is right before our eyes.
3. Just think about today, not tomorrow. It can be overwhelming at times.

May you too find and hold on to what is true, and what you were created for. Ciao.